I need to recollect myself

The afternoon prayer sessions of my Th151 class have really had me taken a closer examination at my own faith. Nevertheless, I realized that the more attention I'm giving myself, the more at lost I am. The more unease I am with myself. The jittering within. So annoying!

I really dont like these days. I mean, well, good thing's been happening, but so are the bad ones. I want to just laugh them away on my own stupidity (does this sentense even make sense?) But honestly, I dont think i can. Events will always leave a mark, shallow or deep. Doesn't matter! A mark is a mark, and it will come back and haunt you till the day you die. grrr.

My biggest sin is sloth. Mehn, im so fucking pissed with myself for how lazy i am. Grades are showing that I'm not doing good. I always sleep in class. Fuck that insomnia. sleeping at 4am everyday isn't good when ur class is just 3hours away (oh, yes, dont i just love 730 classes?)

Christ, give me a break hot boyfriend. A rich one. har har